Thursday, March 14

Day 224: What Scares Me, Is The Thought Of Being Alone.


You are scared.
You are alone.

Now, you're scared.

You're in a huge hall filled with millions of people, thousands of faces, hundreds of voices; some are familiar, some completely new and you're in between all of them, suffocating, rushing past everyone, looking for someone; someone you don't know. You don't even know who to call and who to ask for. It's like you're silent. You're screaming and no one can hear. You're scared, suffocated and anxious. You are almost crying and you don't know what to do. You've lost all hopes. You don't want to be alone. You stop somewhere. You feel a familiar touch right behind you. You're happy. You feel secure. It's amazing. It's warm. You want to cling on to it, like a little baby holds on to it's mother's breast. Suddenly, you don't like it anymore. You're no more comfortable. It's no more good. You want to go away, as far as possible, from that touch, from that feeling. You're running. It's following you. You run faster and faster until you're exhausted and broken. You want to shout. You wan't to cry. You've left it behind, but it has taken a part of you with it. Now that it's gone, you wish you could have it back, all of it; all the bad so that you can have all the good. You're all alone. You want someone, anyone in that case. You just don't want to be lonely. You don't want to be alone.

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  1. “I’m here. I love you. I don’t care if you need to stay up crying all night long, I will stay with you. There’s nothing you can ever do to lose my love. I will protect you until you die, and after your death I will still protect you. I am stronger than Depression and I am braver than Loneliness and nothing will ever exhaust me.”

    ― Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love

    Weather considering these lines or those lines, Loneliness always comes as a baggage.

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    1. That was wonderful.
      Loneliness is actually underrated. You always want someone or the other.

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  2. It's fast pace is what kept me reading it. It's a beautiful piece yet again. It's got so much panic, I can feel it.

    Love.
    x

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    1. Glad you could connect.

      Love, xx

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  3. Wonderful.
    "Perhaps, you really didn't love. You just don't want to be alone."

    -Grey's Anatomy

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