Friday, June 13

A Letter That Almost Made Me Cry


Dear V, 

I hope you are fine. First of all, please accept my apology because reading this would take a while. And if you’re reading this it means I actually worked up the courage to mail it. You don’t know me. There’s no easy way to say this so I’ll just say it that you are amazing, you are terrific. It's great to know that a person like me exists and also feels the same way that I do. This letter is basically a confession, comprising all the things that I think you should know. I was going through a bad phase, love issues followed by a death in the family. Everything around me was breaking down to chaos.The pain was agonizing but I knew that it would logically pass however it was seemingly endless. .Reading your blog since you'd started writing has been one of the many good things happened to me. You stopped me when I was on the verge of harming myself. Without sounding harsh, I feel that the scar reminds you of the reason why you self harmed in the first place.And I feel we're all fighters, yeah? So I gathered the courage to battle it out instead of finding an easy way out. For that, thank you. :) You don't know this, but you've taught me many things, you have taught me how to laugh at myself, you've taught me to believe in myself the way you believe in yourself, in a way that makes all dreams a possibility. You've helped me to move on. I've learnt that its very important to overcome the sorrow that accompanies any type of separation,continue advancing. Then not look back. Just Forge on.
In life, you never lose. You either win or you learn. The deep scars may not heal quickly yet brace yourself so you can look forward to the beautiful things that await you. You have taught me how to be slow to speak and quick to forgive, to love people who have hurt us, because they need it the most. Its because of you I've learnt how to let go of small things and fight for what matters. You have taught me a lot of things in life by just existing..I wonder at times. How strong I am...? Not physically though, but mentally. The potentials I have amuse me, but they do scare me at the mean time.. Sometimes, I think about the years ahead of me, I think about all the adventures, about love. About all the amazing people I am going to meet. I think about falling in love. Also about the places that I am yet to discover. For that one moment I believe I will be happy one day.I know happiness is out there and I know I don't have to look for it, it would find me eventually. I have hope. Writing down what you mean to me would be a really tough task. I look up to you for inspiration in many ways.You probably don't know this but I think you're one of those people who are silently making world a better place. You're a breath of fresh air. You're a treasure. You obviously don't know this but I have a tendency of making things seem more beautiful than they already are but trust me, I am so glad that I know someone like you exists, and the fact that my friends are very few doesn't upset me AT ALL, for I have you who helps me to stay strong by your writing. You have the power to seduce people with words. I am honoured to be a part of you, and it means a lot to me. The way you weave words together is insanely beautiful. Oh yes, I read 23 Memories and I loved it. The way you use metaphors and imagery is commendable. Your words form a certain picture in my mind like images from a warm and terrible dream. So beautiful. A strength that enables me to go on along this bumpy road knowing things will be just fine.Even though we've never met , even though I might not play a role in your life all I can say is you have inspired me to such a degree where I'm actually capable of living happily. In peace. Each time I tell myself that I'm fucking amazing and I'm stronger than I think I am. I don't need anybody to define myself and It wouldn't have been possible if it weren't for you. I believe only beautiful souls can make others feel beautiful. You are a beautiful person, V. Every bit of you is magical. It might sound weird but this letter has been in my drafts since time immemorial haha. I could never send it, but felt like doing it today because it was really important. I really can't thank you enough for all that you've done by simply existing and writing and I honestly have nothing to repay you but love. I wish you find all that you wish for in life. And I know, you will. :) I hope we meet someday. 

oh well yes, I do think about you. <3 

Much much love, S.

1 comment:

  1. Read the third line and immediately thought of this. Someone's channeling Hank Moody huh? :)

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